Last words of Iscariot
Listen! For you must understand that
I did not know that it would have ended like this.
I did not know the evil that would have resulted from my kiss.
For it was such a simple kiss,
A kiss that I thought would have only spurred on the insurrection.
The revolution that our people for so long was waiting on,
The rebellion that I for so long was anticipating.
But there was none.
For they took you away,
Away from me and away from amongst us.
Oh God, what have I done?
I thought I was helping.
I thought that it was my duty to force the issue.
For it seemed as if only I understood who you were.
It seemed as if no one else knew
Nor comprehended the power that you wield.
I thought that only if I pushed you,
Endangered you, forced your hand,
That you would have had no other choice,
But to use your powers.
And oh yes, I saw the potential within your powers.
I was drunk with the possibilities of what our tribes
Could have done with you as our leader.
I saw how you could have led the revolt against
The Roman tyrants who had enslaved us.
I thought that with you at our side,
Whom would we fear?
For, I had witnessed how you walked upon the waters with ease
And what’s more, I had observed
How you quelled the rough seas with a mere whisper.
Truly, no longer would the ocean be a barrier to our conquests,
No longer would far away Rome be safe against our forces.
Even grim death would not have its sting against us,
For, you gave life to the dead and healed the infirmed.
You had the power to tell the cripple to rise up and walk.
Truly you were the Messiah, our Savior, and the Lion of Judea.
He who had been promised to come and lead us into battle.
Oh how many a night, I had dreamt about
Us marching upon Rome, to be victorious,
For I knew that we had God with us.
Yes, there was many a night that i envisioned the faces
Of the chief priests and Pharisees who doubted you
And how astonished they would be to know that they were
Wrong and that the Messiah, whom the prophets had foretold about
Was amongst us all along.
My Lord, I was ready to fight.
I was ready to be a part of your kingdom.
I was ready to serve and to take part in the riches
That would have come from our great victories.
So you must understand that I did not betray you
For the stinking pieces of silver,
But I only delivered you unto your destiny.
I only assisted you in completing your purpose,
And the pieces of silver,
Well, you can’t blame a man for wanting to make a profit;
For we all know money is the answer to all things.
Nonetheless, I would gladly give it all up,
All to know that you are safe.
I would gladly abandon my desires of prosperity
To know that I had nothing to do with your death,
To know that I am not the betrayer of the Christ.
But who would believe me?
Who would understand?
For I can hardly believe myself.
Oh you treacherous Romans!
Take ye back your dirty silver,
For its blood money and I do not want
To have anything to do with it.
Oh Lord, forgive me for what I have done
And what I am about to do.
And oh treacherous noose, welcome me,
For only you seem to understand and
Have the strength to support my burden.
And as I tighten this beautiful noose,
Let it be known, that I did love the Lord,
But I did not understand his purpose…until now.
